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today i got my hair cut
its ugly and stupid looking
it makes me sad :[
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LOOKiNG FOR RELiEF iN YOUR MiSERABLE LiFE...YOU NEED SOME ROCK N ROLL AND YOU BETTER GET iT RiGHT.
.·´¯`·-» friday i didnt get to really do nething cause my rents wer being gay and such...school is off for the next 2 weeks which is good i need a break like evry1 else does. friday was pretty okay at school i had fun durning flex. if ne1 saw me tell me if i lookd hott..haha i got presents from stephii and biz.i wore the sponge bob thong that steph got me outside my pants stupid ass got me a the rong size lmao!! i love you steph. thank you both for the gifts.i love em :] i was kinda pissed at gym wen we watched the movie elf cause of a certain someone i wont name ne names but stph shud kno who i am talking about. hes really fucking gay...but othr than that my day was fine. my pareents wer bitching wen i got home.idk about wat i just dont listen to them nemore. saturday i went to jims it was a lot of fun we rented Eternal Sunshine For the Spotless Mind cause i wanted him to see it. he liked it... [butterfly affect sucks jim] haha. i love that kid.i spent the whole day w. him basically which was cool. next time i go ovr to his place steph wants to go so that shud b fun..she wants to meet conor.lol.TODAY IS ALI COKERS BDAY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BDAY TO YOU HAPPY BDAY MY COKERS HAPPY BDAY TO YOUUUU!!!! I LOVE YOU!!! she came to school on friday iwas happy. hehe. xmas is coming up later this week which shud b okay i guess...i hate my family cept for my brother. i still need to get some gifts but wen im done w. doing all that stupid shopping ill b okay. ill try and make a new journal so i can update more cause sometimes this one wont let me...im still not sure about the new user name i should have but i shud figure it out soon.. season greetings from annie i love you kiddos that read this shit!! im gonna go cause im the foners w. my loverly. lots of love to you ppl that read this.
HAPPY BDAY COKERS!!! <3 **BDAY HUGS**
love always n forever,
ana sanTOYo x3
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| YOU PROMiSED ME STARRY NiGHT SKiES |
[11 Dec 2004|01:57pm] |
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iM MiSSiNG YOUR VOiCE AT NiGHT TiME...
-yesterday i went to the feild trip at ECC it was for the most part boring. it was funny wen biz got in trouble though. we wer laffing a lot durnign the ladies presentation. then she got up and liek you saw biz in the screen thingy like right smack in the middle haha.well aftr the feild trip we went back to school james broke up w. me. but i undrstand why and i think its for the better too.i talked to ali about it.shes the bestest cokers in the world yay.she didnt go to school.haha the day b4 ms. albano stopping us at the door thinking we did sumthing rong. lol that was funny. woot. i went up to math aftr that and brandon and luke made me feel better. EVIL GIANT SPERM!!! brandon made me happy. then aftr school i hung out w. my yugioh bitch!! o man i had a lot of funn and laffed a lot w. her. she got me all dressed up to meet kyle i had pig tails and makeup done like whore. haha we played pool in her basement and watched tv and i called kyle. "HI KYLE THIS ANA STEPHS SPECIAL SSSS SPECIAL FRIEND!!"...."DONT CALL HERE AGAIN"...hahahahahaha wow. pretty intense ther. we made my YU GI OH shirt and looked up shit. then we made him a hate letter cause the asshole didnt show up.haha.i almost peed in my pants it was so funny. i told her a lot about the ppl in palatine. it made me miss the old times. stephs mom is soo cool she does the south park voice awesome!! haha i had a lot of fun i went home and waited to talk to jim on the fone then i felll asleep on the fone w. him. he said i was like saying sumthing and stopped in mid-sentence. lol wow. crazy. today i get to hang out w. sami and steph which shud b very very funnn!! yayy!! im thinking of making a new LJ user name thingy cause mine sumtimes says thers liek an error or sumthing and wont let me update any suggestions on wat it shud b or ideas?! leave me comments plz!! okay ill update more later this weeknd or week.
Loverly doverly,
anni x core//a.s.s.//anabellie//mexi loser//weeeetard
haha whoa.
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How dare you walk with your head high? What is so good about you? You've gotten to the top by stepping on people. You've gotten through the hard times by blaming everyone else. What good have you given to the world? What good have you done to the people you care about? None plain and simple your a piece of scum. The bodies pile up. The blood runs cold. Your blood will soon be your downfall. Keep walking with your smug smile. Everyone sees through it. Everyone knows your the worst person to ever hit the earth. Your victims were your only friends. Say hello to the new bred. Say hello to the silent killers. Here we are and we're not stopping till you lay wasting away paying for the people you've stepped on to get to the top
By: a very beautiful strong person in my life that i will always and forever love with all my heart.
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| ALi iS THE SHIT...TAKE A BIG WHIFF!! |
[03 Dec 2004|09:40am] |
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IN ENG. CLASS RIGHT NOW KNDA BORED...SUPPOSED TO BE REVISING MY PAPER...
16 MORE DAYS TIL ALI-COKERS BDAY YAY!!
DUCK TAIL DUDE IS THE SHIT NIT.HE LIKES SCIENTISTS...WOOT!
HE'S CUH-RAZ-EEEE!!!
HAHAHAHA
HYPER RIGHT NOW CEPT IDK WAT TO TYPE ABOUT.
IM WATCHING WAT ALI IS TYPING AND COPYING OFF HERS
I GET TO GOTO ALI -COKERS TODAY PROLLY I HAVE TO CALL MY FRIGGN MOTHER DURING FLEX
WE HAVE UNCONTROLABLE LAFFTER SYNDRUMMMMM!!!!
ANABELLI E IS A COPIER!!!!!!! PFFF...NO IM NOT... =D
I`M NOT LOOKING AT YOUR JOURNALLL!!!
NO ALI YOU STICK IT IN YOUR PIPE AND SMOKE IT.!!! XD
WOOOOOT!!!!
TYPING WAR...I THINK IM LOSING..WOOOT!
MR.DUCK TALE IS READING ONE OF THOSE PORN BOOKS CALLED NAIVE TONGUE.WHOA THATS HAWT!!
L-O-L!!!! LAFF LAFF HA-HA HUMOR!!
JEM LOST HIS FACE!!! AHHA!
TOMMY IS ACCUSED ACCUSEX!!! OF RAPE.
JAMES IS PLAYING A GAME. LIFE SAVERS WATER PARK!!! PING PONNNNG! WAT IS THAT CALLLED?!?!?
IM NOT.DONE.
IM DONE.
WOOT!
LOVE ALWAYS,
ANA//BELLIE!!
EX OH EX OH
I LOVE COKERS MORE THAN I LOVE
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DUCK TALES!!!...WOOTTT [ THATS A LAWT ]
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| ALi iS MY MUUUTE MWAHHH X3 |
[01 Dec 2004|03:35pm] |
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*The more i see - the less I believe the more i hear - the less i care this world we'v created, has left me cold*
YAY!ms. albano isnt gona be here for the rest of this week.woot!today eng. was fun. we didnt really get to do much but still. we hav this old sub guy for the rest of the week that looks like the scientist dood from that duck show lol ali your fun!! my cokers lost her voice last night at the b-ball game and a snow ball fight hahaha her voice was so funny i got to laff a lot. i was actually more awake cause we got to talk. we did that more than work neways. she did stewarts mom voice from mad tv ahha!james wasnt done with his work so he got in trouble and the teacher kicked him out to work outside in the hall wen he was like almost done. it was stupidly gay. We wer calling ali a mute and all these this it was fun. wow my whole thing is about eng class im sucha loser.my medicine makes me hyper lol.yesterday i felt bad for brandon cause he got all of his millions of cds and cd player stolen. stupid dundee fuckin crown. :[ i srry brandon. i helped him in math today. i also talked to mr. domich and he told me about working out aftr school w. other track ppl so i prolly will start doing that to get in shape for soccer or track which ever one i decide to do not really positive about all that yet. palatine and dc friends tell me which ud rather go to soccer or track? haha i have to hav all my friends and ppl from palatine go to my games and see DC it will b loads of fun. hmm...im really hyper and have coke right now. Today in gym we lossed our volley ball game. it suckd stupid mexican gurls!!!! rawwwwrr!!! [ haha im a mexican girl ] well hmm. i suck at volley ball not my fault. steph is a hottie shes my bitch for 3rd block! her mom butters em good! w00t! whoa i better go illl update later im so bored right now. hw time...damn leave me comments bout the soccer/track thingy or yeah I LOVE COKERS!!! shes the coolest mute everrrrr!!!! EX OH EX OH!
Love alwayyys x3
Ana*bellie
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-» yeah i havent really updated in a while srry.not much has really happend ..just same old shit with the family and more shit. i feel really lonely-ish its knda sad i feel like i only bitch on my lj but yeh.today i played with conor and jim. it took forever to get to jims cause my mom and my sister are bitches.promises broken.it was a lot of fun at jims though. i havnt had a chace to hang out with conoro in a long time. i like being w. him hes a funny kid. we just hung around at jims played video games,pool,and such.i called rachi cause her # was on jims cellfone "oh my frankie" haha.conor talked to her and i laffed so much "why wont you just talk to me...remember that time we went to chicago on the boats...and we held hannnds" lol conor.then my brother picked me up from jims i talked to him for awhile i felt bad. he told me about some stuff thats going on with him and someone else i truly deeply care about. he talked about my parents being also another problem. god i really hate the things they do. their actions i wonder what their intentions for our family really are. what do they want. i care about my brother a lot. i might get mad at him someimes but all in all hes one of the people i look up to. hes been through a lot of the same stuff that i have. he deals with a lot. i respect him. i hope he doesnt turn to doing some stuff though. idk its hard to explain. i cried today with jim. he didnt cry only me. something really got to me today. i mean like i love jim and i always will but idk wat im doing i feel like im skrewing up crap.i have already skrewed up crap between me and him. i love him so much i hate hurting him but thats all i do so wats the point.iv been through so much with him its just so hard.cants explain.blah.i miss some old friens i miss kelly and mykii steve and john. wow idk. i tlaked to mykii and he tells me how much he loves me its amazing i think of the time he pushed me and i fell and got a HUGE bruise on my knee. haha almost had to get stitches but we both cried cause we wer sorry. man that used to one of my biggest problems and look bak and smile at those problems. i miss being a kid. but in spirit in mind i will always be a kid. imature yeah thats me.*sigh* oh school. child development is the gayest class evr wen you go to take care of kids i guess its alright but ms. gylapo is soo gay mmmk? dont take that class..id rather take journalism than this..actually no lol. eng. right now yeh gay. but i get my wondrful ali*cokers <333 i love that girlie.we are reading To KIll A Mockingbird its pretty eh...Gym is still the best w. stephie srry we havnt gotten to hang out though babe ill call you wen i can do sumthing. flex has been alright i guess. Math im lonely idk ne1 that really sits by me. courtney and brandon are on the other side of the room. brandon is h.o.t.t. lol i love him.its late now and im just sitting here thinking about stuff cant sleep.leave me comments if you care. finished my camera so i should have pictures on here soon also...crying sucks.it just does.
Things that break:1.hearts 2.promises 3.pencils.:[
un love,
ana//a.s.s.//loser//mexican
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its all so different now... yes people love me, friends , family, its not the same...i dont want someone to love me because its their responsibility , because they were born into it, i dont want someone to love me because its their job their responsibility...i want someone to love me because of who i am, how i treat them, i want someone with no previous idea of who i am love me because they have i learned what kind of person i am, what i can do for them. Love that gives your butterflies in your stomach when you see them, makes your smile till your cheeks hurt, i had it all but it slipt away...i want to fall in love with you again... x|3
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im fucking sick of my parents fucking sick of all their bullshit.
i want to just fucking kill my mother idc about the consequeces
she doesnt deserve to live fucking bitch i fucking hate her!!!!
im sick of all this bullshit
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k well this morning at like 7 i woke up cause last night i asked my dad if my oldr sister cud take me to jims cause she was going to go ovr to palatine to take damien to daycare so yeh he said it was alright and all and today wen iwoke up the bitch woke up. she was all bitching and was saying your not going newher blah blah blah exc. so then my dads like i didnt say you can go newhere wtf your a peice of shit little bitch more bad names exc. so then i was jus tlike fuck you im going i already argued w. you last nignt to go and all this shit and hes still calling me all this shit and was like get out of the car and i was just like fuck you im going and my oldr sister was just like i dont hav time for this i hav to get to work and shit so im jus tlike fine fuck you dont talk to me to my dad. and then i got out and he was stil really gay so then he says hes not letting me in b4 i talk to him or sumthing like that so im just like fuck you and i walk and he fallows me at like 7*30 am its fucking cold as fuck so i sprint to get away from him and yeh i end up walking til prolly 1 in the aftrnoon cause i walked to carpenterpark got lost in on the way didnt kno wher the fuck i was. but eventually found it. and then i walked to the mall hoping to see sum1 and ther was my retarded big yellow bird..KURT. i heart him. he bought me food and my fav. icecream.but yeh then he was like i want you to stay cept you shud call your mom so i did. she pickd me up and totally bitched at me and made me try and talk to her if thats wat you wana call it. more like yelling and her trying to be a bitch and yeh. the thing i find funny my dad ddint talk to me. wen it was all his fault and he lied to my mom about it. wow goes to show wat a great person he is. i mean lying and getting your own kid in more trouble with someone you already kno is a bitch wow. #1 dad ever! fuck i hate him...srry if thsi didnt make sense im just pissed sad and just fucking BLAH i hate my parents. at least my brothr talked to me i mean hes had to deal with them too and has had sum xperience w. all this shit from the bitch.yeah idk i guess im skrewd for this weekend in doing nething.. even though it wasnt my fautl to begin with. my mom asked me today if i hated her so much if she shud call the state child sumthing w.e the fuck to take me. wow she didnt listen wen i said YES GET ME THE FUCK AWAY FROM YOU STUPID BITCH I HATE YOU!. and right now i hear my little sister crying saying she doesnt want to b near me i guess i scare her.. too pissed off...
-->ana fucking loser.
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Basics:
[Name] Ana Santoyo
[Nickname] annie,a.s.s.,agent 666, the devil,satan, exc.
[Screen name] anni x core
[Birthday] 7/30
[Age] 15
[Astrological sign] Leo
[Chinese zodiac sign] no clue
[Location] c-ville ghetto!
[Sexual Preference] 8==========D ~O
[Marital Status] single.
[Religion] none
[Eye color] naturally dark dark brown...but now fake blue eyes
[Height] like 5'3 or 4 i thnk
[Shoe size] like 7 or 7.5
[Parents still together] unfortately
[Siblings] 2 sistrs 1 bro
[Nieces/Nephews] DAMIEN!!!<33
[Pets]harley
[In school/graduated] highschool Dundee fuckin Crown lol
[What do you drive] i cant drive
Favorites:
[Color[s]] black/red
[Number] 19
[Animal] bunnies
[Flower] roses
[Scent] love spell
[Drinks]
[Soda] coke
[Book] Gospel According to Larry was good
[Band] Killwitch<33
[Song] rose of sharyn for many reasons ***
Do you...
[Color your hair?] dark brown ..wana dye it though :[
[Twirl your hair?] i do that a lot..its a habit
[Have tattoos?] want em!
[Have Piercings?] yes more to come soon
[Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both?] no..
[Cheat on tests/homework?] have..who doesnt
[Drink/Smoke?] im a good girl ...not counting halloween..
[ Like roller coasters?] yesh very havnt been to 666 flags in forever though :[
[Wish you could live somewhere else?] i hate livng here
[Want more more piercings?] very much so
[Like cleaning?] not really
[Write in cursive or print?] no and off both
[Sweat a lot?] um ew...
[Own a web cam?] nope perv!
[Know how to drive?] god no
[Diet?] i like diet coke and thats it
[Own a cell phone?] nope
[Ever get off the damn computer?] lol eventually
Have you ever...
[Gotten a speeding ticket?] cant
[Been in a wreck?] no
[Been arrested?] no good girl
[Been in a fist fight?] in a way yeah
[Kicked someone in the nuts?] so many times
[Stolen anything?] not really
[Held a gun?] yesh many times.
[Drank?] yea
[Been so drunk you couldn't remember your name?] i wish
[Considered a life of crime?] i hav no clue
[Considered being a hooker?] im only a land hoe!
[Cheated on someone? ] no
[Cried over a girl?] i think
[Cried over a boy?] yeah actually recently
[Lied to someone?] yeah but it wasnt in a bad way
[Fallen for your best friend?] yeah...
[Made out with JUST a friend?] damn it mykii..
[Been rejected?] yea prolly will b soon...
[Been in lust?] yesh
[Used someone?] not really no
[Been used?] hope not
[Been cheated on?] hope not again..
[Been kissed?] yeash i miss it <|3
[Current mood] whoa weird-ish
[Current taste] coke
[Current hair] down wavy cause i had pig tails braided earlier
[Current thing I ought to be doing] um nothing?
[Current cds in stereo] in flames and mix cds myki made me
[Current crush] idk....
[Current job ] i need a job damn it!
The last time...
[Last book you read] Splinter
[Last movie you saw] SLC Punk earlier today
[Last thing you ate] junior mints
[Last person you talked to on the phone] haris and jim
Do you...
[Do drugs?] no for a lot of reasons
[Have a dream that keeps coming back?] no i wish
[Play an instrument?] used to..im a quiter
[Believe there is life on other planets?] sure why not
[Remember your first love?] cud nevr forget him think about him all the time
[Still love him/her?] honestly yes..but its complicated
[Read the newspaper?] yeah
[Have any gay or lesbian friends?] yeah
[Believe in miracles?] depends
[Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?] yeah
[Consider yourself tolerant of others?] usually no..
[Consider love a mistake?] not sure actually
[Have a favorite candy?] too many to say i heart candy in general
[Believe in astrology?] i used to wana b an astroligist wen i was like 8
[Believe in magic?] idk
[Believe in God?] no
[Do well in school?] teachers hate me.
[Go to or plan to go to college] yesh montana university!! woot woot!
[Wear hats?] sumtimes
[Hate yourself?] doesnt mattr
[Have an obsession?] lol many
[Have a secret crush?]shut the fuck up
[Do they know yet?] ...
[Collect anything?] um srta
[Have a best friend if so who[s]?] sami jenny diana rach jimmy kq mykii ...i can go on..
[Close friends (who)?] a lot of ppl
[Like your handwriting?] no too messy unorginized but dc eithr
[Care about looks?] in a way everyone does...weather you want to or not..
Love life
[First crush] sean freed lol ...wow..
[First kiss] jeff p. cool kid
[Do you believe in love at first sight?] idk
[Do you believe in "the one?"] yeh i thnk so
[Describe your ideal significant other] insane
[Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?] yeash
[Are you a tease?] lol sumtimes...its fun cant help it
[Shy to make the first move?] not really but i usually nevr wud want to
Are you a...
[Wuss] not xactly
[Druggy] noooooo
[Daydreamer] yes
[Freak] haha
[Dork] yeaaaap
[Brat] no
[Sarcastic] no...me?..
[Angel] fuck no bitch im satan!
[Devil] haha fuck yes agent 666 waaat?!
[Shy] not really
[Talkative] yeah..
[Flirty] at times i can b
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 i love my strap-on aka SAMI WAMI!! best times with this hottie i love her more than ever BFFL!!
 the cowboy doesnt like the pics lol |[my big bro aka the worse brother evr for getting his frshman sis mikes lol tankies bro =D ]|
 rachi my playmate and the strap on SEXY MAMAS!! <3333
 I WAS A SEXY COW GIRL YEEE HAW MOTHR FUCKR!!! |[DONT MIND TEH BURGER KING HAT ON TOP]|
 BURGER KING HUNNIES OW OW!!!
 I look bad in this pic but thats okay...i love jimmy hes so cute!!
oh boy as sami wud say that was tha bestest halloween ever!!!
comment pleaz you whores!! =D
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+.// friday i went and saw The grudge god that movie was fucking hilarious i ruined the movie for ppl though haha it was sooo funny. i missed the fucking preveiw for sponge bob that made me really sad.i saw seany david jay jay and lindsay ther :] i went with sam my brother and jimmy. it was fun. i missed seeing chris cause he wanted me to go to a party but i cudnt cause i had no way of getting ther and i had planned this w. my brother a while ago. im srry my naked cheeto bean bag!lol on saturday i went to jims basically all day i had fun xcept i felt bad cause im not going out w. him i kno i hav to stp being the way i am w. him but its hard. so moving on is hard and it takes time right? it sucks but yeah. im doing it for the bettr and it will b good at the end. this isnt pointless i kno it isnt. jim you kno i love you and care about you and i alwys will.ill b here for you no matter wat and that wont ever change you dont hav to worri about that w. me. you know me.and you shud trust in me w. that.Saturday night sami babi slept over and we had fun <3 i love s.o. w. my baby!sunday haloween!!!! sami and i got ready and then i went to jims and sami went to rachies. i was a mothr fucking cow girl haha wow so mexican. jim made fun of me non stop but idc cause i looked hott haha idc wat i look like im so not afraid of looking like a dumbass. lol yeh jim and i took care of the trick or treaters for awhile and i beat the crap outta him hahaha my fucking cow girl hat!then my brother pickd up sami jim and i. we went to the trail and had our mikes.aftr that we went to around wher rachie lives hahaha funess i saw di*ana my sweetest sweet! jenny*bear amanda and megan! we walkd around for a while...and yeah a lot more stuff!it was awesome then we just drove around for awhile went to the res. then drove ppl home. i talked to jim and big boy that night on the fone also but my mom was being a bitch so i had to go and all that stuff yeah.all and all probably the best halloween evr.i love hallween! next holiday...thanksgiving..SPONGE BOB SQUARE PANTS THE MOVIE!!!! so fucking xcited for that. i already kno im going w. chris rivard jim sami and idk who else comment if you wana go!! next weeknd i kno im hanging out w. my sexalicious big boy,di*ana,and jenny*bear oh cant wait. ill prolly post later in the week or weeknd.
Love,
a.s.s.//agent 666//ana//loser
p.s. thanks to my brother for the mikes =D
p.p.s. i love n miss you.
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...im coming to kill you...wont leave until you die...
~-» well today we got out early at school. cause of finals idk or idc how i did. ms. albanos gay..a bad teacher i say. but yeh w.e. the day started off pretty okay as usual i just went and sat w. kenny left and went to class w. my juicy juice. i didnt get much sleep actually last night but at least i slept a little. i want the weekend to come faster damn it. i think im going to a movie on friday and then sat. w. sami and ppl at a movie |[ sami is sexxxi !! ]| and sunday HALLOWEEN!! fuck yes im xcited!! What is evry1 being??Halloween has to b my favorite holiday. thers no bad halloween memories that i can think of. i miss being younger though i didnt hav so much to worri about. i remembr going to trick or treating at grandma lopez's with tony and carrie wow...i miss old times a lot lately.kinda depressing actually. sometimes i wish i wasnt so stupid seriously like this keeps going over and over in my mind.if i was smart i cud really b an okay person but im not i feel so useless and like nething i do isnt good enuff and it wont ever b cause thats just how it is..thats just how i am.i talked to nikki last night and she helped my mood go a little better i hadnt talked to her htat much. but i did. she commited a crime. the kraft macoroni and cheese crime. lol.she gave me some advice and i got to talk to her about stuff htat had been going on..keeping her updated on my life.yeah.i also talked to the worste mother in the world diana magnuson haha. shes so funny. i also talked to my big boy i love that kid so much hes soo cool. im glad i met him. erica is a bitch to him. he deserves better in myyy opinion lol.. I tried selling ads for journalism but wow ppl fucking suck nut! yeh im bored and i think im going to take a nap ..i felt like i was neglecting my livejournal so i posted. yeap. leave comments if you care.
Love,
Anabellie/a.s.s/loser
p.s. i miss you.
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=-=-=-=-> well yesterday i went to the fremd game w. sami and my
brothr drove us it was fun it knda reminds of anothr time that my
brothr drove me sami and nikki sumwher lol swedish fish and walgreens
swizzle condoms haha ohh goood times. yesterday i was really hyper at
the game i saw a lot of ppl i saw pd wich i missed so incredibly much
:] a lot of ppl asked me if i was on sumthing cause i was so hyper and
happy lol yeap. Molli helped me stretch out my uterus mwahahha.i lost
sami and my voice hurt aftr from yelling lol i found her at the end
though cause i had my brother call and stuff. i enjoy my visits to
fremd. pd stole me a sexual sponge bob baloon woot woot. earlier that
day i went to visit a lot of ppl at fremd during the time they had
school but hten got kickd out lol otherwise we wudv gone to the pep
rally but thats okay i guess. i got to eat lunch w. sami and rachi and
ppl yeah so it wass pretty goood hehe. i put sum pics today in my
fotobucket so ill post them later [ they are frum the 8th grade dance
last year!! ] ill also try and finish my camera so i can take pics
today at hc and then on here yeap. im at samis if no1 got that. having
fun w. the whore. last night was grrrreat i love having sex w. the
bitch haha. yeh so we are getting ready and stuff and then off to the
beautiful night to remembr fun fun fun im real xcited for tonight ill
see how all the fremd hc xperience goes down and update aftr mwahhh
kisses to all. leave me a comment if you love me.
Lovely Dovely,
Anni//Mexxx//loser//anabellie!
p.s. i dont like miller light blah! :[
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.·´¯`·-» 2day knda blew kurts got a mohawk thats awesome and i love <33 hes a hottie. samantha the swimming strap on sexy hoe just made plans w. my for hc and and the night b4. im so xcited and just want to get away from stuff at hc and just hav fun w. my hoes!! like seriously i think i deserve to just hav fun that ONE night. the end of the term is coming up next week for DC WAT?! and i think my grades shud b fine even though journalism is gay and all i shud get a good grade lol srta cause kyla and i ditch it sumtimes lol vending machine fun today lol. I love maxine im glad we fixed evrything over the summer shes one of the nicest ppl and deserves the best from guys caus she alwys has bad times and past w. them cough lenny asshole cough. shes just a great girl and seriously ne guy wud b lucky to hav her. i hope to see her at hc again lol. last time it was a lot of fun. i hope she knos she is loved from me. ah i cant wait for this week to be over!!!! rawr! Today at lunch i walkd around w. Ron hes a cool kid and like a lot of cool bands he was ther for me wen i fuond out some crap and yeah hes really cool. anna left early i guess i was sad but i hope shes okay or feeling bettr or w.e. my sister got a tatoo of matts name on her ring finger yestrday i kidna see it as a mistake. btu watevr her decisions she nevr listens to ne1 neways. and PLUS her bf listens to Metallica ...nuf said. so jimmy wont post til i comment so ill prolly comment soon enuf. i hope he starts feeling happier he deserves evrything he wants too. i wish he cud b happier than he normally lately has been. i love the kid too much to see him hurt for this long of a time. yestrday i watched eternal sunshine for the spotless mind. i really really liked it jim carey was hotter in it than ne other movie he has been in. it had a really good plot and it of course reminded me of jimmy its okay though i guess thats normal. ill prlly post soon later this week or sumthing. counting down the days for hc and other weekend funnn! fuck yes. later dolls.
Loverly doverly,
anabellie//annie//loser
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x.//i want to die.
--->so this week at school knda interesting a lot of things remind me of Jim. i cant do nething about that but yeh. i took this test thing in Albano's class about wat career would b good for me and basically the only A i got was an activist like michael moore. lol then ali and i just kinda laffed about stuff L-O-L HA-HA idk we wer knda hypr i guess.shes a fun gurl. yeap. This week i think i ate lunch w. Anna the whole week i love her she has to be one of the nicest ppl i`v ever met and she's helping me a lot right now w. problems. I keep listening to "Metaphor" over and over again. idk why. tonight i want to go to the Fremd game but my bitch of a mother left w.o. me ... i fucking hate her. This week i also talked to a really nice person named Kate that gave me some good advice about a certain someone. She's got really cool hair too. Kyla and I ditch journalism a lot this week lol. fun fun. I pass by James's class and wave to him and get him in trouble mwahhahaha. I dont know wat to do w. that kid though urgh confusing but i like him.I hope Anna and i get to hang out this weekend!! Tonight i`m going to Fremd game w. jenny*bear and di*ana xcited!! :] well i gotta go get ready for that i`ll post later.
Lovey,
anabellie//loser//ana
x.//Let me in I`ll bury the pain.
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| sadness and depression...this isnt a poem..just feelings |
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o.//This is my last serenade...i feel you as you fall away...
::~>right now i can sum up my life and my feelings to well...it sucks
since i moved here i hated it this has to be the worste year of my life.
well 2nd worste. the 1st is obvious to those who really kno me.
i lost so many freinds close freinds. so many just lost. thanks for evry1 who still is my freind
you ppl dont kno how much that means to me that you dont giv a crap about how far away i am.
i crave change in my life good change for once i hate it here but i realize i hav to put up w. it w. all the prblms my family is going thru right now.
i wish i cud disipear from the earth just completely disapear
i hate this life i want to die i dont think suicide is selfish like most ppl say it is i really dont.
i dont mean to bitch about all this im just sharing... if you dont want to listen to this stop reading
i just dont know how else to xpress my feelings. i never do. it all just bottles up inside of me.
the only time is wen i cry as im doing right now i cant help it i just cry and cry. i do this a lot.
everytime i think this just all comes out. i hate myslf more and more the person that i am. i hate.
i hate feelings and emotion. i hate sharing w. ppl this but i feel like i hav to sumtimes to stop it.
i kno it doesnt make sense but lately life doesnt make sense i dont get it. i dont know wat i want.
i want to find out wat i want out of life so bad but it something no one can really just find out its just idk.
you ppl really take for granite wat you have i jst hope you know that. i do too sometimes but really seriously just stop and fucking think.
i`m going to stop now jsut because i dont know wat else to put here well i do but i just dont want to share.
but for right now i dont know about life. i dotn want to live.
ali-cokers i love you thanks for all the nice things you say about me and im just so thankful for you your an amazing person
jim- im srry for evrytime i hurt you i kno im a bad person thats why i cant say it enuff i love you and im srry.
o.//this is my last serenade...from yourslf you cant run away...
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